whats in store ..

first off. thats my new dog Rogue : ] beastly.

the next couple of weeks are looking eventful.

this coming weekend i start my internship at a fine arts center for dance.

before hand i will be doing a charity event for the homeless.

then its alot of signing up and studying for AP testing, ACT, and SATs

20 days till spring break! its not going to be a hot one, but i do plan on snowboarding.

ill keep on posting and see how that turns out.

oh to be young,

and constrained. 

i pray for the day where i can make my own decisions, bad or good.

without a guardian telling me what to do.

i wish we could read other minds to realize what we mean when we talk.

then we would know everybody has good things to say. 

reality or TV

honestly, i am infatuated with shows like CW's  Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill.

but i also enjoyed the show Laguna Beach not because it seemed "real"  because the maturity level in the these shows.

A common question is would one take reality or live in a different life?

i would pick the different life if it was anything like the shows on TV.

Wealth is not the issue but the people.

i love my friends but the way people act on shows is different. I wonder, is youth matured on television or are the people in certain places immature due to living in bubbles?

relationships:

so people ask me all the time why i wear a purity ring and why i do not date.

im clearing it up now.

purity ring:

no, its  not because they're "in"

my sister gave me a purity ring for my 16th birthday, i had already made the choice of not having sex till marriage, but she wanted to get me the ring.

I choose to not have sex before marriage because sex isnt that big of a deal for me. It is religiously based but i would have chose this way of life with or without jesus christ being my savior. I'm waiting for the love which hopefully ends in marriage. 

not dating:

I decided not to date when i moved to Colorado.

I don't think seventeen year old boys and girls can have real relationships when its all based on text messages and "chillin"

I think ive always acted older than i am and its hard to find a guy that lives up to my expectations.

i joke and say they have to be a musician, but it doesnt really matter. 

They just have to get me.

i like to laugh, and i love to talk.

so its easy to get to know me.

i am getting older

something just came to mind,

it has been about 5-6 years since i have lost a tooth.

i forgot there was a time in my life where i had to hassle with that pain every 5 months or so.

though now i have to struggle with picking a college, the idea of moving out,

making my own decisions, paying bills.

and i believe i am ready.

havnt updated

in a while.

winter break in texas was great.

love my dallas area kids.

im not working anymore so ive caught up on sleep

and my guitars. 

 

focusing on the future is good, people say we should live in the now.

but what if we dont really like the now, i choose to change it and look onwards. 

snow=

cold and dangerous.

and winter begins. 

its been snowy for about 4 or 5 days. 

not too sure if i like it.

but i do know i will like leaving in 10 days to go back home for christmas break : ]

i have a one act play tomorrow i have to perform at for a grade. 

its not as fun when your being graded. i miss GHS theatre.