im back

in the DFW. Garland to be exact.

feels right, i get to rekindle my relationships with old friends, meet new people,

all that fun.

Colorado felt like a ten month vacation.

im ready to get back into the swing of things,

though some things have changed.

and i am fine with all that is to come. 

whats in store ..

first off. thats my new dog Rogue : ] beastly.

the next couple of weeks are looking eventful.

this coming weekend i start my internship at a fine arts center for dance.

before hand i will be doing a charity event for the homeless.

then its alot of signing up and studying for AP testing, ACT, and SATs

20 days till spring break! its not going to be a hot one, but i do plan on snowboarding.

ill keep on posting and see how that turns out.

oh to be young,

and constrained. 

i pray for the day where i can make my own decisions, bad or good.

without a guardian telling me what to do.

i wish we could read other minds to realize what we mean when we talk.

then we would know everybody has good things to say. 

reality or TV

honestly, i am infatuated with shows like CW's  Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill.

but i also enjoyed the show Laguna Beach not because it seemed "real"  because the maturity level in the these shows.

A common question is would one take reality or live in a different life?

i would pick the different life if it was anything like the shows on TV.

Wealth is not the issue but the people.

i love my friends but the way people act on shows is different. I wonder, is youth matured on television or are the people in certain places immature due to living in bubbles?

relationships:

so people ask me all the time why i wear a purity ring and why i do not date.

im clearing it up now.

purity ring:

no, its  not because they're "in"

my sister gave me a purity ring for my 16th birthday, i had already made the choice of not having sex till marriage, but she wanted to get me the ring.

I choose to not have sex before marriage because sex isnt that big of a deal for me. It is religiously based but i would have chose this way of life with or without jesus christ being my savior. I'm waiting for the love which hopefully ends in marriage. 

not dating:

I decided not to date when i moved to Colorado.

I don't think seventeen year old boys and girls can have real relationships when its all based on text messages and "chillin"

I think ive always acted older than i am and its hard to find a guy that lives up to my expectations.

i joke and say they have to be a musician, but it doesnt really matter. 

They just have to get me.

i like to laugh, and i love to talk.

so its easy to get to know me.

i am getting older

something just came to mind,

it has been about 5-6 years since i have lost a tooth.

i forgot there was a time in my life where i had to hassle with that pain every 5 months or so.

though now i have to struggle with picking a college, the idea of moving out,

making my own decisions, paying bills.

and i believe i am ready.

havnt updated

in a while.

winter break in texas was great.

love my dallas area kids.

im not working anymore so ive caught up on sleep

and my guitars. 

 

focusing on the future is good, people say we should live in the now.

but what if we dont really like the now, i choose to change it and look onwards. 

snow=

cold and dangerous.

and winter begins. 

its been snowy for about 4 or 5 days. 

not too sure if i like it.

but i do know i will like leaving in 10 days to go back home for christmas break : ]

i have a one act play tomorrow i have to perform at for a grade. 

its not as fun when your being graded. i miss GHS theatre.

five miles from

so far away from all we know

saw the AVP boys in denver last night,
i miss going to shows every weekend.
on the drive back it was sleeting and icy
that sucked, especially since i was driving.

tonight theres a benefit concert,
but i have to work first.
and i have to put my two weeks notice in.
lets see how this goes.

isnt it suppose to be snowy?

its december, no snow.
its just cold.
which is dumb, i could stand the cold if it was preety, but its not.

on a good note-.
last night i bought my ticket to dallas for dec 27th.
its going to be greattttt.
home for the holidays

random facts

im just going to tell you ten random things about me.

1. biggest fear- is when someone tells me to close me eyes, i get my head ripped off
or for me to tap someone on the shoulder and they slap me.
2.i have to sleep with my closet doors closed and my bed has to be made before i get into bed.
3. i can probably recite all the lyrics to any hanson, backstreet boys or aaron carter songs.
4.(not so random) im a vegetarian, that eats fish. i dont know the correct term.
5.i talk /sing/ and dance in my sleep.
6. when i was in 7th grade i won a silver medal for an essay i wrote about this book, that i didnt read. im a great liar/ bs-er....
7.i probly put my chapstick on 20 times a day.
8. i do not like sweet tea, or hot green tea. i like berry hot tea.
9. i do not brush my hair unless its straight.
10. my dream job when i was ten was to work in starbucks.

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trip to dallas

thursday we got into the car at about... 5? or 6? drove straight to dallas, except for the hour stop in amarillo to eat at the BIG TEXAN, got in at 11.

friday went to the memorial of Bettie Jane Ray ( my great-grandmother) very emotional, very social.

afterwards went to her apartment to clear it out and look back on stuff, then to the grandads, then to mesquite to stay with my sister.

saturday woke up , went to mcdonalds, showered, and was on the road again.

leaving dallas is hard.

its home, and i cant wait to go back.

ill make a video of my adventures... when i have time.

passing by fast:

time that is.

me and my brother were discussing how it has not felt like six months since we moved here, but it has. and a little.

yesterday morning, we got a call from grandmum saying that our great grandmother passed away.

none of us were expecting it. so it was shock. she was my babysitter up untill i was five or so, she kind of raised me till then. ill miss her

it still hasnt hit me yet, because i havnt seen her since last thanksgiving. 

this just makes me want to return home quicker because i dont have all the time in the world with my relatives. 

sometimes

i just feel like expressing my thoughts and opinions

and being a thousand miles from home, this is an easy way to do so.

ill probably update twice a week or so.

enjoy : ]